Wednesday, May 31, 2006

(edited)
annon:

starting another spamming season?
three words : BRING-IT-ON

i'm damn bored at home anyway
~~judging from your language, you might be worthy of my time~~
substance wise? buck up

stop shaping my depression

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

it's midnight and i'm here blogging
about how much i hate being neglected

fu-k it
i hate pangsey-kias
especially when they are my close ones
especially when they pangsey at the very last minute
especially when they turn to me as the last resort
especially when they think it's okay to pangsey
especially when the date had already been made
ESPCIALLY WHEN THEY PANGSEY BECAUSE OF LOVERS

know why?
because i don't do all these
i regard them seriously and i get trash treatment
give me a lover, give me a friend
i'll choose the latter
firstly, because to me: friends = permanent, lovers = temporary
secondly, it's just morally wrong in my dictionary
serious
no matter how cliched it may sound
no matter how many people say this crap too

i'm so fu-king pissed off
because this is not the first time
and this is not the first person
that's what pisses me off

fu-k it fu-k it fu-k it
i think too much when i don't have pictures or videos to blog about
i need to fu-king get out of here
alright, then it all goes back to the pangsey-ing issue
ahhh, fu-k luh

i know
i shouldn't judge people by their actions
or much less whether they smoke or not

i wouldn't, to someone that wasn't close to me
if you smoke, we can be friends
but never close ones
because i won't let my care &concern go down the drain

you were different
i took you for a brother
you stopped my depression by crapping
but it was you who started it all over again

actually, i wouldn't have minded if that leonchia-incident hadn't happen
i didn't mind whether he smoked or not
i thought it was okay &al
but look where it brought me, he left because of it
it hurt alot, so much that i vow never to let that same feeling touch me again
so i'd rather break away from you before you have a chance to hurt me

no, i'm not against smokers
daddy smokes too

i'm just protecting myself

Monday, May 29, 2006

i know we always say the same things
DY told me so too
but then again, it's what makes me smile
:D:D:D

WOOT-SY ! new blogger

WILSON haa

LINK LINK LINK !

i know it's wrong
we both do

it won't help not to mention ____ when it's just you and me
cause ____ still exists

sorry if i have to cut all connections
it's not in me to continue a mistake

i hate feeling guilty and depressed and sneaky

Sunday, May 28, 2006

oh-my-gosh
i'm still in shock
the news came unexpectedly
don't ask me, i really can't respond now

stupid javin
haa

i said "styloboyyy" infront of mama
and she lectured me for being tomboyish
@_@ damn lmao can

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, LINQIAN !

just back from linqian's chalet
flithy, exhausted, spirited

went to bugis with puayleng, munwah, sebas and wai leong yesterday
to buy linqian's birthday present
and search for munwah's cap too

bought this shirt from PMK
shared the cost with puayleng, sebas and wai leong

munwah bought something else
like D-U-H

couldn't open it up
but it's a pair of doggies that will say "i love you" when their lips meet
so cute can

we were the first few who reached there
and gobbled up most of the food

then there's this Team of A, B, C, D, E, F
and a plan to wet zhaopeng
didn't in the end cause he ran away
bahhh

i didn't take any pictures
cause i didn't want my camera to get in the way of fun

fun began at the stroke of midnight
shaocong, weng weng(if that's how you spell it), guosheng, puayleng and i
camped at beach cavana
one barrel of Tiger, 4 full cups for jiayi
WOOTS
4 is the max for shaocong, weng weng and i
puayleng and guosheng drank one

shaocong totally spaced at the 4th cup

can't really see clearly
but he's definitely drunk
he can't even walk a straight line
i swear it's freaking funny to see him like that

i was fine throughout the journey back to the chalet
but i spaced too, when i flopped on the bed
pardon my whatever-it-was, that night

ahahahah DICKSON
i just found out a secret
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH :D:D:D

anyway
played a little dai di and TRIED to sleep

after breakfast at mcdonalds today
we stayed in the room the entire time

fooled around &al

weng weng &shaocong
ERRRRR

shaocong's butt

:D:D:D

i swear he soo looks like ____
can't say in case i get sued

OMG-ness
woot-sy

oh and sharry scratched puayleng
sharry can go be a penknife ahhhh
lmao

wanted to stay another night
but mama will simply slaughter me
cause staying over the first night had already been an impromptu decision

Friday, May 26, 2006

exhausting trip to westmall
we were like playing catching or something
haa

back to ho swee for bball
i hate bimbos who wear bball jersey
i hate bimbos who act pro &al
because all in all, they do nothing but insult bball
urghhh

X-men X-men X-men
you gotta catch it
if you're into supernatural kinda stuff
:D:D:D
watched it with puayleng till 9pm
straight after bball
oh gosh, i'm dead beat can

i don't even know if i should go meet the clique
but if i don't, i'll have to forsake ____
ahhhhhh

i loveeeee Jacky II, daddy's boat

since young, i've been riding the waves in it
i made my first contact with the sea in it
i got to know daddy more through it

:D:D:D

Thursday, May 25, 2006

"you've always been able to hit that note, jiayi. what happened? if this continues, you'll have to stop singing."

a huge shock for me, that's what it is
when benedict said this, my mind went blank.

i didn't know how to react
i didn't know what to say to explain myself or defend my stand
because there's nothing proper or convincing enough

to me, music is the only thing i can obtain accomplishment from
not studies, not sports
and for me to be able to connect to it, there's only two ways
through my tuba and my very own vocals

i knew then, that benedict spoke of nothing but the truth
recently, my voice has been sounding hoarse &al
and i noticed that myself too
if this DOES continue, i won't be able to vie in the competition, hand in hand with alan

for two solid years
benedict has been training my vocals, without a hint of slacking
he refuse to even let me take a breath
and similarly, i refuse to take any
his firm and unyielding coaching, all just for this competition
not only will i let myself down if i fail to take part in it, i'll let benedict down too
and alan for training so hard, along with me

not only do i need to compete, i need to win this competition
the award is a form of reassurance to me
i need it, i truly do
i failed in studies
i failed in all kinds of relationships (not just those lovey kind)
i practically failed in everything
this is all that i have and this is all that i need now
i need that sense of accomplishment for satisfaction

please lord please, i pray

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

gosh, 27 pictures and 3 videos to upload
the whole day's so jumbled up
first it was joyful then it was sad then it went high again

had bio experiment for the first time in months

ms ho's leaving us and mdm goh's sub-ing
damn well hope she's good
i wanna pass my bioooo

took a video of shu anne's experiment

the objective is to see the cute little leaf spin
lmao

yeah, i know all you see is leaf, leaf and leaf
something to spice up your life

GRAFFITI !

and a very special part..

whoever that girl is, you have my sympathy
:D:D:D

alright, then we went back to class and partied !

found this in sebas' wallet
don't worry, it's been used before
HEHEHEHEHE
go make a conclusion (:

BENNY THE BOTAK !
haa
although i nearly lala-ed when benny cut his hair, i LOVE playing with it
so smooth &al
:D:D:D

i quote pl - "suspicious article in the corner "

nah..it's just puayleng charging her phone
making full use of school facilities !

woots
munwah with puayleng's specs

time for chem = time to sleep
i'm not kidding
it's like almost the whole class is sleeping can

aww..so sweeeeeeet !

right under his nose luh !

munwah's the cutest lah
he's like drooling and smiling in his sleep at the same time
and occasionally, you can see a glimpse of his teeth

took a video of him sleeping

oh then puayleng caught sufi in the act
he's damn vain can

went to beach rd with munwah, iggy and puayleng after school
then went back to bukit ho swee for bball
:D:D:D
matches, matches and more matches
played like mad today
cause everyone's like so hiong
even puayleng jumped ahhhh
heh

(edited)

yeah, i'm back to being emo
cause mr wong showed us our positions today

i'm not even sure why i did that

1. not for death
if so, it would have been the wrist and not forearm

2. not for attention
simply because i don't go for such stuff. so twitish can.

3. not to "numb" myself
there's no pain at all lah. WTH. no feeling &al

what other reasons are there?
i'm just listing out the NONE-possibilities so that i can find the cause
i mean, i don't go like
"oh ! i just recieved a trauma, therefore i'm leaving a scar to remind me of the horrid past !"
i'm not delighted to see blood
but i do admit that i'm fascinated
by how blood is able to ooze out from a wound that is not painful at all
perhaps i did it for fun

ahh..whatever
i'm just gonna pia for FYE

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

i was so enthu about studies today luh
cause my sucky MYE results motivated me
and puayleng kept saying i can't
I CAN I CAN I CAN
must STUDYYYY

the free period today was lame
can't sleep &al
puayleng and i just kept trying to sneak-sleep
failed, got real bored &al

yeah, i know
i'm boh liao

anyway, talk about sleeping

absolutely CLASSIC when ms ho pulled the chair from under sufi's head
hur

oh then we gobbled on some pig-gum-candy thing after school

it's so cute can

sebas went to mold it and shape it to become..

TA DA !

and erm..

that's the asshole in case you're wondering
haa

went to watch "over the hedge" with puayleng
cause lesbo's sick { TAKE CARE GIRL ! }
the show's just barely moderate
no kiddos laughing like mad in there
but there's one adult who did
gosh , totally retarded

Monday, May 22, 2006

mentally exhausted
physically worn out
that trip to bukit batok was a disaster
gosh, save me luh

that encounter threw me off
yes, the reality check finally came
i'm sorry i acted that way
there's no other way to..

oh please, don't play with fire
you wanna play cutting games
bring it on
i won't hesitate, at all

hell, i'm the emo kid once again

hohoho
ipkaw bluetooth-ed something to me in class
puayleng's gonna start hell when she sees this
:D:D:D

in case you're wondering
it's puayleng in skirt
not exactly a surprise lah

Sunday, May 21, 2006

ohwel
____ made silence the best thing in the world
through tranquility, ____ gave understanding from within
it's truly a feat

while everyone else begged me to cease my crying
____ wept with me and offered everything with nothing

i need you..

went to marina square centre stage with
mama, daddy, granny and gorgor

i was gobbling down a dumpling when i saw...

XINNI &COLLEEN !
haa
i was damn shocked can
i nearly choked on the dumpling when they waved at me

anyway
started off with lemon juice
and the dishes just came and came and came..........

yeah, and we cleared everything
and i mean EVERYTHINGGGGG

i'm BLOOOAAAATEDDD now
as usual anyway
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